Suffering and Forgiveness.
“Thus says the Lord to this people: “Thus they have loved to wander; They have not restrained their feet. Therefore the Lord does not accept them; He will remember their iniquity now, And punish their sins.” Then the Lord said to me, “Do not pray for this people, for their good. When they fast, I will not hear their cry; and when they offer burnt offering and grain offering, I will not accept them. But I will consume them by the sword, by the famine, and by the pestilence.” Then I said, “Ah, Lord God! Behold, the prophets say to them, ‘You shall not see the sword, nor shall you have famine, but I will give you assured peace in this place.’ ” And the Lord said to me, “The prophets prophesy lies in My name. I have not sent them, commanded them, nor spoken to them; they prophesy to you a false vision, divination, a worthless thing, and the deceit of their heart. Therefore thus says the Lord concerning the prophets who prophesy in My name, whom I did not send, and who say, ‘Sword and famine shall not be in this land’—‘By sword and famine those prophets shall be consumed! And the people to whom they prophesy shall be cast out in the streets of Jerusalem because of the famine and the sword; they will have no one to bury them—them nor their wives, their sons nor their daughters—for I will pour their wickedness on them.’”
Jeremiah 14:10-16 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Jeremiah%2014:10-16&version=NKJV
And pour their wickedness upon them He did. It’s impossible to discuss the concept of forgiveness without discussing the perils of being dead in sin. Because people who are dead in sin are unaware of the depth of their own wickedness. Just like the people in Jeremiah.
For 14+ years now I’ve suffered daily from the effects of a debilitating disease. I’ve recounted that kind of pain in Part 2 of thelupusproject and I have attempted to describe the mentality that is produced from enduring long term suffering. My 14+ years of experience with endurance was split into distinct methodologies beginning April 15th, 2014.
The first method of enduring was, by 6 years in to the illness, to view each moment of each day as a function of either staying a victim of learned helplessness or rejecting all forms of learned helplessness. My methodologies were, at that time, strictly secular yet yielded an entirely biblical outcome. In about my seventh year of suffering, on April 15, 2014 I walked almost perfectly by accident into a Christian experience simply through practicing anti-victim techniques that are well known to people with catastrophic illnesses but unknown to virtually everybody else. Framing exercises. They are so easy to do it’s easy to forget you’re practicing them. What those practices yield in terms of reductions of crippling emotions is priceless.
The image below is The Annunciation With Saint Emidus, 1486. I was unaware of this painting on the morning of April 15th, 2014 but by the afternoon of that day I would know it’s meaning intimately.
My Christian experience began much in the same way as that painting with a powerful vision of a light beam penetrating solid objects, lifting me in the air, turning and twisting my body into the proper orientation to that light’s direction then slamming me to the floor into a classic Islamic prayer position.
The next few minutes would radically alter how I would ultimately spend the next seven years and beyond.
“Therefore, since Christ suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same mind, for he who has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, that he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh for the lusts of men, but for the will of God.”
1 Peter 4:1-2 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=1%20Peter%204:1-2&version=NKJV
A few hours earlier I had published thelupusproject where I wrote “Today my world is in a place of peace, love, justice, and no mercy. Peace not because of lack of confrontation but peace because confrontation is directed at uncovering the lies that keep the spirit of life from flowing through me, or the forest, or my interests.. The love is tough love because I don’t care about your ego or mine or any other lie that you carry. I don’t care about your hurts, they are yours and yours alone. They are your creations, products of your choices not mine. You are the one who nurtures them and carries them and lets them interfere with your peace, not me. Love is not about carrying the burdens for someone who should not, but chooses to, carry them in the first place. Justice here is one that empowers everyone and enslaves none. A justice that ensures you will only be free to walk your truth, not your lies. Be who you are, unashamed, empowered, walking your truth. Mercy here is only reserved for people who are genuinely unaware they have done something to screw up the peace, love, and justice part. For those who come here with their ingrained willful ignorance, and expect me to walk their lies with my time they get no mercy. None. Because the job of the truth is to take power away from lies. It is time we let the truth do its job – without mercy. “
The emotions that formed the words that made up that paragraph of no mercy were formed under periods of intense suffering caused by an incurable, degenerative disease. Before the death experience there was no hope and no moment left other than the one I was in at every living moment. Under those conditions one learns to protect their peace. Going all in I had unwittingly taunted the universe and God had just answered.
It was in that state on that day God decided to give me a sample of merciless truth. Summoned by a light beam, I grabbed a rifle and set off for the woods, determined to find out what that thing was that was audacious enough to take my power to protect my peace away from me. While the rifle turned out to be useless, my attitude forged from from seven years of endurance would be priceless.
Staying in the cabin would have, by my philosophy at the time, been just a manifestation of slavery to learned helplessness. A slave to fear. My inner core had been reprogrammed through suffering. A suffering completely unnecessary had I been taught Christianity as a framing exercise. Ultimately crossing about 300 yards of open ground I entered a tree line and was “killed” on that spot. Never to be the same again.
While walking into a death passage, greeted by a cross I did not recognize and moving through a death passage was shocking in itself, what was more shocking was the realization that what was in part being called secular was really Christianity and what is being called Christianity was really now mostly secular – ineffective and dead. An intricate inverse of reality, propped up by layers of heretics. Viewing the gates of Hell and feeling the emotions that drag people into that place against the alternative of forgiveness and everlasting life was the most sobering experience of my life.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Matthew%2011:28-30&version=NIV
My God given instructions that day was to simply invert the inverse. Put it back. OK, I’m thinking to myself this is going to be pretty easy. This is a dialoging exercise not unlike what I’d learned in my early days of dealing with a chronic illness. What’s different is the death experience is brought into the now time and becomes a natural part of life. Ok, we got aliens involved now but that shouldn’t be too bad, or so I thought. It could have been pretty much as easy as a dialoging experience. The state of Michigan, however, would work in overdrive to make sure the obstacles to any such progress were, and are, as high as medically and judicially possible.
Like the people in Jeremiah I significantly underestimated the inertia of the inverse that is today holding multitudes in the bondage of slavery. A slavery they do not recognize. I significantly underestimated the sadism of the “Christian” secularists who would stop at nothing, it seemed, to maintain their control over the thoughts and expressions of others. I significantly underestimated the depth of corruption, ignorance and bigotry that now jointly infested our medical and judicial mindsets.
My court trial taught me God as maybe had become socially and legally acceptable but God as fact was not. The state has invented a persecutory religion and would soon try to murder me by its tenants. God as fact, in the eyes of the state, has been converted into a mental illness, projected mostly on the disabled in not so secret courtrooms all over the country. The outcome of judicially enforced demonology as medicine is reflected in the excerpt from my medical records at the lead in to this post. This new state sponsored religion is easy to profess because it is nothing more than a repository of white trash sanctimony and institutionalized cowardice fueled by pharma profits. That malicious prosecutions of the disabled are regular occurrences in courtrooms today would be shocking to a society that had not lost its decency. But thanks to the silence of the cowards that yields a tolerance of judicial tyranny the religion of the inherently corrupt has now become the law of the land.
“But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.”
James 1:6 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=James%201:6&version=KJV
Faith – dictonary.com will tell you a valid definition of faith means a belief that is not based on proof. What I learned with the help of an alien encounter is that Christianity contains its own proof. You just have to be brave enough to pursue it.
Not wavering. I knew what not wavering meant through years of endurance. My ability to remain unwavering would soon be challenged not by aliens, but by the incompetent sadists that tax dollars are now funding via our mutually corrupt political parties. The psychcult. More on that later.
What I mostly want to try to convey to you is how much more effective Christian teachings will be in your life if and when you apply the standard of suffering – no mercy – to the subject of deception. It is a much easier thing to do then you think and is a must do if you’re to feel the healing effects that come straight from the love of God. This is how you invert the inverse. It’s how you make prayers come true.
Parting with the ways of the world – a critical pre-forgiveness step
“He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad. Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men. And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come. Either make the tree good, and his fruit good; or else make the tree corrupt, and his fruit corrupt: for the tree is known by his fruit. O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh. A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth evil things. But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned.”
Matthew 12:30-37 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Matthew%2012:30-37&version=KJV
With me or against me. Christ taught developing a singular mindset that allowed a person to become reunified with the Holy Spirit – while alive on Earth, not after becoming dead and buried. He did not teach a methodology of perpetual praise in lieu of an immersive experience.
Where I relate to this passage is the mindset that came about after all my treatments had failed. I was wracked with crushing pain, a wheelchair was provided to help with my mobility. I could not walk to the mailbox, constant nausea meant I rarely ate. Enduring in the face of that brought about a single mentality. A “with me” mentality that I didn’t recognize at the time.
If your Christian practice is not aimed at re-entering the presence of God on a permanent basis you’re not practicing Christianity. If you have not been baptized in that death passage your words will be mostly hollow. You will follow false prophets and delude yourself into a belief that you’re on your way to heaven when in fact you are probably not. Without the existential presence of God, our creator, your practice (faith) is dead.
Fear of death is bondage
“Inasmuch then as the children have partaken of flesh and blood, He Himself likewise shared in the same, that through death He might destroy him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, and release those who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage.”
Hebrews 2:14-15 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Hebrews%202:14-15&version=NKJV
Hebrews 2:15 is a critical passage. When you take a stance that you will die before you lie, and truly live it, you’re on your way to defeating death. Not overcoming that fear will keep you in bondage to sin and sustain the “against me” mentality that you have been warned to avoid. Fear of death stems from a fear of living in absolute truth. Living in absolute truth is a method of destroying death, which is from the devil, this is why when it comes to fear you have one option. Lose it.
“Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, dies no more. Death no longer has dominion over Him. For the death that He died, He died to sin once for all; but the life that He lives, He lives to God. Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts. And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God. For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace.”
Romans 6:8-14 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Romans%206:8-14&version=NKJV
Here Paul is restating this bedrock theme of Christianity. He is speaking of dying to the fear of living in truth. Choosing to live in truth causes a literal “turn to God” and starts to change the polarity of your core being. This allows the Holy Spirit to come in and start to do its job. It is what will enable you to overcome and what will empower you under all circumstances. Do not think for one second that grace applies if you’re not living in truth. Do not think grace applies if you’re living a life of willful ignorance. I hear many people use this passage as justification for embracing low standards. For those people, go back and re-read Jeremiah.
“Since you died with Christ to the elemental spiritual forces of this world, why, as though you still belonged to the world, do you submit to its rules: “Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!”? These rules, which have to do with things that are all destined to perish with use, are based on merely human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence. Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Gentile or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.”
Colossians 2:20-3:11 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Colossians%202:20-3:11&version=NIV
Paul is reinforcing that rejecting religiosity comes with embracing truth. Hypocrisy, the modern day enemy of Christian practice comes from embracing religiosity. The corrosiveness of moral relativity, meaning having a relative rather than absolute relationship to truth has done more damage to Christian progress and is a key reason for the uptick of the fraudulent state sponsored religion of psych.
What the New Testament is telling you is that no human will ever feel the love of God on Earth without rejecting deception. That rejection cannot be timid in any way. Deception must be renounced without mercy. If you do that, through the sacrifice of Christ you will open a path directly to our creator where you will have your questions answered directly. You will be welcomed, cleansed, heralded and set free beyond your wildest expectations. That direct contact with our Creator is what the Annunciation painting is describing.
Embracing Forgiveness – the personal relationship
“As you come to him, the living Stone —rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him— you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. For in Scripture it says: “See, I lay a stone in Zion, a chosen and precious cornerstone, and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame.” Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe, “The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone,” and, “A stone that causes people to stumble and a rock that makes them fall.” They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.”
1 Peter 2:4-8 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=1%20Peter%202:4-8&version=NIV
The lesson of suffering is that there is only one mindset required to overcome whatever is thrown at you. Living Stones are a good analogy to the mindset the Bible is trying to inform you that you have within you. Looking at my own medical records reaffirmed what God spoke to me me in that He would “crush your hands, break your feet and blind you if necessary in order to save you”. Sounds harsh? Pro tip – It’s not. All I had to do from April 15th, 2014 forward was use the same mentality suffering taught me, just don’t deny God and focus on destroying the fear of death. Because what I learned at the cabin is our deepest, darkest fear is not dying alone in great suffering, it was renouncing our freedom to lie. Destroying the freedom to lie destroys the fear of death. Death is an illusion soon to be destroyed, replaced by a science of core polarity. In this way Death is peacefully destroyed. That is what 14+ years of suffering taught me.
As shocking as my experience with redemption was it was much more horrifying to see Hell isn’t a joke. It’s also much easier to get there than you think. If you think the path of forgiveness is made of simplistic proclamations you’re wrong. If you think Hell is hard to avoid you’re partially right but if you follow the biases of today’s society you’re mostly wrong.
Preparation to defend the practice – post contact jihad
Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy. If you are reproached for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is glorified. But let none of you suffer as a murderer, a thief, an evildoer, or as a busybody in other people’s matters. Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in this matter. For the time has come for judgment to begin at the house of God; and if it begins with us first, what will be the end of those who do not obey the gospel of God? Now “If the righteous one is scarcely saved, Where will the ungodly and the sinner appear?” Therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator.
1 Peter 4:12-19 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=1%20Peter%204:12-19&version=NKJV
The problem with institutionalized ignorance is humans don’t understand that it only exists because of their own love of being, at minimum, a passive observer/facilitator of the suffering of others. Ignorant people like to watch other people suffer in some way or some form but they hate the optics of it so they develop these imaginary powers that allow them to continue their behavior while having a socially acceptable hiding place where they can keep pretending they aren’t leering at something. So those societies will only enter into a spiral of depravity unless they quit pretending they don’t understand what kind of aholes they’ve turned into.
Now comes the confrontation between the enlightened and the ignorant. A transcended Christian living exclusively immersed in the Holy Spirit can literally prove everything he/she says. The ignorant just babble incoherently behind layers and layers of delusion designed to blind them not only to the suffering of others but their own direct role in perpetuating that suffering.
Invariably, as the enlightened keeps demonstrating to the ignorant how wrong they really are the ignorant people tend to get mad and want to fight. Because violence, not intellect, is the last tool of the stubbornly ignorant. Remember the ignorant love to make people suffer while pretending they don’t so they can and will subject enlightened people to whatever level of violence it takes to make them dumb like them or failing that just kill them outright.
There is good reason why, in Daniel 12, the prophesy states that in the end times God’s war angels will be sent to robustly defend the faithful. Defending the faithful is simply defending those who choose to live in absolute truth. We are in a place of spiritual warfare and you are struggling against an evil that has been normalized throughout society to an extent that it is nearly unrecognizable. Don’t get caught on the wrong end of the war angels when that time comes because if there’s one thing they understand it’s the concept of no mercy.
The fight between enlightenment and ignorance has the been the dynamic played out on Earth since the death of the kind of churches described in Acts. The enlightened churches really were places where people like this were walking around:
“Then Peter said, Silver and gold have I none; but such as I have give I thee: In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth rise up and walk.”
Acts 3:6 – Bible Gateway passage: Acts 3:6 – King James Version
That’s not what those churches are today.
Daniel 12 describes the moment the enlightened begin to be robustly defended from the ignorant.
“Many shall be purified, and made white, and tried; but the wicked shall do wickedly: and none of the wicked shall understand; but the wise shall understand.”
Daniel 12:10 – Bible Gateway passage: Daniel 12:10 – King James Version
For an enlightened being to approach a place like Earth they have to go in with an attitude the best outcome is to reach as many of the ignorant people who are effectively “dead in sin” as possible. Returning their depravity back to them in a violence for violence exchange would be an option but not one the enlightened want to use unless someone or some group insist. Patience, post contact will be a necessary virtue.
“Therefore be patient, brethren, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, waiting patiently for it until it receives the early and latter rain. You also be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand. Do not grumble against one another, brethren, lest you be condemned. Behold, the Judge is standing at the door! My brethren, take the prophets, who spoke in the name of the Lord, as an example of suffering and patience. Indeed we count them blessed who endure. You have heard of the perseverance of Job and seen the end intended by the Lord—that the Lord is very compassionate and merciful. But above all, my brethren, do not swear, either by heaven or by earth or with any other oath. But let your “Yes” be “Yes,” and your “No,” “No,” lest you fall into judgment.”
James 5:7-12 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=James%205:7-12&version=NKJV
In the 7+ years since the Christian side of Lupus emerged I’m still practicing what I learned on a continuous basis. If Lupus cost me everything – career, financial, and family related the Christian emergence cost me even more. I had never felt the level of scorn and bigotry that came directly from the state sponsored religion that disguises themselves as medical practitioners. I had people I had known for years who quit speaking to me because of the stigma produced by the state funding bigots as medicine. Suddenly nobody wanted to be associated with anything that had to do with me. There was nobody even to dialog with. I’ve fought against the kind of stigmatization of people like me since the day this happened and I will continue to do so going forward. So I continue this struggle against that backdrop.
“Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; You shall cry, and He will say, ‘Here I am.’ “If you take away the yoke from your midst, The pointing of the finger, and speaking wickedness, If you extend your soul to the hungry And satisfy the afflicted soul, Then your light shall dawn in the darkness, And your darkness shall be as the noonday. The Lord will guide you continually, And satisfy your soul in drought, And strengthen your bones; You shall be like a watered garden, And like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail. Those from among you Shall build the old waste places; You shall raise up the foundations of many generations; And you shall be called the Repairer of the Breach, The Restorer of Streets to Dwell In.”
Isaiah 58:9-12 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Isaiah%2058:9-12&version=NKJV
“And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins, in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience, among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others. But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.”
Ephesians 2:1-10 – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage?search=Ephesians%202:1-10&version=NKJV